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When you were a little boy, though I knew it was wicked, I used to wish almost that you might be ill, so that I could nurse you day and night. But you were only ill once and then it was at school. I should so like to help you. It s the only chance I shall ever have. And perhaps some day when you re a great artist you won t forget me, but you ll remember that I gave you your start. It s very good of you, said Philip. I m very grateful. A smile came into her tired eyes, a smile of pure happiness. Oh, I m so glad. chapter 40 A few days later Mrs. Carey went to the station to see Philip off. She stood at the door of the carriage, trying to keep back her tears. Philip was restless and eager. He wanted to be gone. Kiss me once more, she said. He leaned out of the window and kissed her. The train started, and she stood on the wooden platform of the little manchester united blue kits station, waving her handkerchief till it was out of sight. Her heart was dreadfully heavy, and the few hundred yards to the vicarage seemed very, very long. It was natural enough that he should be arsenal jacket 2019 eager to go, she thought, he was a boy and the future beckoned to him but she she clenched her teeth so that she should not cry. She uttered a little inward prayer that God would guard him, and keep him out of temptation, and give him happiness and good fortune. But Philip ceased to think of her a moment after he had settled down in his carriage. He thought only of the future. He had written to Mrs. Otter, the massiere to whom Hayward had given him an introduction, and.knew little of school life but what he had read in the stories of The Boy s Own Paper. He had also read Eric, or Little by Little. When they got out of the train at Tercanbury, Philip felt sick with apprehension, and during the drive in to the town sat pale and silent. The high brick wall in front of the school gave it the look leicester city orange kit of a prison. There was a little door in it, which opened on their ringing and a clumsy, untidy man came out and fetched Philip s tin trunk and his play box. They were shown into the drawing room it was filled with massive, ugly furniture, and the chairs of the suite were placed round the walls with a forbidding rigidity. They waited for the headmaster. What s Mr. Watson like asked Philip, after a while. You ll see for yourself. There was another pause. Mr. Carey wondered why the headmaster did not come. Presently Philip made an effort and spoke again. Tell him I ve got a club foot, he said. Before Mr. Carey could speak arsenal jacket 2019 the door burst open and Mr. Watson swept into the room. To Philip he seemed gigantic. 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Her eyes were large and black. There was a singular coldness in her appearance. She seldom spoke and smiled more seldom still. Her husband introduced Mr. Carey to her, and then gave Philip a friendly push towards her. This is a new boy, Helen, His name s Carey. Without a word she shook hands with Philip and then sat down, not speaking, while the headmaster asked Mr. Carey how much Philip knew and what books he had been working with. The Vicar of Blackstable was a li.
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